Writing depresses me a little bit because I can never fully describe what it’s like to be here. The first few months have been rough, but I feel like I’ve finally reached the top of the hill and can see a clear 360-degree view of the beautiful horizon all around. And it’s pretty awesome. I will write more about the journey coming here, but first I want to write some of my thoughts and feelings right now.
I’ve decided that the best thing I can do for the people here—and myself—is to stop trying to be some kind of savior and just learn to be one of them This is my home now, my community, and these are my people. Happiness requires jumping in with both feet. Don’t get me wrong—I don’t intend to lose my culture or individuality; indeed, these things will only help me to become even more integrated into this group of diverse individuals.
I’ve also thought about what it means to serve from the heart and love the people you’re serving. I think sometimes we make the word “love” so deep that we’re afraid to use it; it has to imply some sort of desperate “I’d do anything for you” mentality. But maybe it really just means appreciating another person for who they are, seeing a bit of yourself in them and them in you.
2 Comments
June 11, 2009 at 8:53 pm
I love your perspective. Especially about love being appreciation. I’m glad you found a place to see the horizon!
June 15, 2009 at 6:14 am
Mandy, I love reading your thoughts. It’s really refreshing to hear you articulate your feelings and perspective. And I’ve often thought about how cautiously we use the word “love”, at least I do, because you never know if others will have the same definition…
Anyways, keep the updates coming!!!